Saturday, June 6, 2020

So, a storm's been brewing

I was talking to my mom the other day about how I saw myself in this fight. It is a long road of discovery, and I am still figuring it out. As a writer, I am not going to stop writing. As an educator, I am not going to stop teaching. For each of my poems that I share, I’d like to discuss two poems/ essays/ books by authors of color.  

The first poem I offer you today, dear readers, is an excerpt from “A Wreath for Emmett Till” by Marilyn Nelson. The original poem is 15 sonnets, and is published as an illustrated narrative. In 1955, Emmett Till was a 14 year old boy from Illinois who was visiting his cousins in Mississippi. He didn’t fully understand the difference between the veiled, subtle racism of the north and the raw, visceral racism of the south. He went into a store and spoke to a white, married woman named Carolyn Bryant. She then accused him of making physical and verbal advances at her. In response,  Bryant’s husband, his brother, and others killed Emmett Till, a 14-year-old boy, in a horrific way. They were acquitted. 

In 2008, 53 years after Emmett died, Carolyn Bryant said she fabricated the incident. White supremacy allowed this to happen.. A white woman falsely claims that a Black boy besmirched her honor. Her husband is given carte blanche to do whatever he sees fit. White women continue to use their position as “the weaker sex” to force retaliation against Black men (re: Amy Cooper / Christian Cooper). White people must dig into their deep-seated biases and learn to do better.  Myself, my family, many of my friends, included.  

Some say that Till’s death spurred the next wave in the Civil Rights movement. While wildly important, I am sure some people would have preferred to see his fifteenth birthday. 

Excerpt from “A Wreath for Emmett Till” by Marilyn Nelson

III.
Pierced by the screams of a shortened childhood, 
my heartwood has been scarred for fifty years
by what I heard, with hundreds of green ears. 
That jackal laughter. Two hundred years I stood
listening to the small struggles to find food…
Two hundred years of deaths I understood.
Then slaughter axed one quiet summer night, 
shivering the deep silence of the stars. 
A running boy, five men in close pursuit.
One dark, five pale faces in the moonlight.
Noise, silence, back-slaps. One match, five cigars. 
Emmett Till’s name still catches in my throat. 

XV. 
Rosemary for remembrance, Shakespeare wrote. 
If I could forget, believe me, I would. 
Pierced by the screams of a shortened childhood, 
Emmett Till’s name still catches in my throat. 
Mamie’s one child a body thrown to bloat, 
Mutilated boy martyr. If I could
Erase the memory of Emmett’s victimhood,
The memory of monsters...That bleak thought
Tears through the patchwork drapery of dreams. 
Let me gather spring flowers for a wreath:
Trillium, apple-blossoms, Queen Anne’s lace, 
Indian-pipe, bloodroot, white as moonbeams, 
Like the full moon which smiled calmly on his death, 
Like the gouged eye, which watched boots kick his face. 

This next poem, “Black Girl Magic” by Mahogany L. Browne talks about what a Black girl is supposed to do vs. what a Black girl is. White readers, I want to check what our role is in how we and society make Black girls feel about themselves. “The Bluest Eye” by Toni Morrison follows a Black woman named Pecola who equates her melanin with ugliness and strives toward being beautiful--in her eyes White. 

Think about the movies we are watching. Does it offer Women of Color in lead roles? With complex backstory? Check the books you’re reading to your children. Do they offer racially diverse characters? Think about the aisles of dolls and the pictures on toy boxes. Are they representing diverse representation? Ask yourself, how can you be a part of the change? How do we teach our children to be actively anti-racist?

Please take a watch: Black Girl Magic
Here is an interview from Poetry Foundation of Mahogany L. Browne discussing her poem and experience.


I wrote this poem at 3:00 a.m. I took my dog out to go to the bathroom and felt the heaviness of the air. From there, metaphors jumped synapse to synapse in my half-asleep brain. With some revision and editing, we are here. 

Storm Warning

You know what it feels 
like right before a storm?
The air is leaden. 
         Thick. 
I know there is some 
scientific answer about 
pressure change. 
But science can’t answer 
what I feel in my 
         bones--  
That the air is hot with 
         electricity. 
It is still and 
waiting for a spark.  

This country was hot with 
         electricity. 
And, George Floyd’s final breath 
         sparked
and lit the world on fire. 

There is no scientific reason 
for this change in pressure. 
It has been boiling and rising. 
Four hundred years of 
oppression and rage vacuumed into 
         Eight minutes and 
         forty-six seconds.

It isn’t just about George. 
It isn’t just about Ahmaud. 
It isn’t just about Breonna. 
It isn’t just about _____________.
                                   (say their name) 
  
It is about White men looting Africa taking 
          husbands, fathers, and brothers. 
          wives, mothers, and sisters.
It is about four hundred years of lynchings
while the people who were supposed to protect... 
   ...watched.
   ...cheered. 
   ...participated. 

This country has been violently racist 
          since before it was a country.
It has been raining 
          hate and 
          violence and 
          prejudice 
since its conception. 

We are fighting the same war, 
just a different century. 
Police brutality didn’t begin 
in the last decade; 
we just began filming it. 

These protests are not 
in response to any one death. 
They are in response to 
          ALL the death 
          ALL  the carnage 
we wrecked on our Black brothers and sisters.

By responding with 
          militarized vehicles and 
          escalating peaceful marches, 
the police continue time and again 
to prove that they require 
          submission 
not offer protection. 

They are pointing weapons at our citizens. 
          It doesn’t matter that the 
          bullets are rubber when 
          you’re staring down the 
          barrel of a rifle. 
Tear gas and pepper spray are 
          chemical weapons. 

The air is leaden and thick, my friends. 

We are the storm.